Clermont-Ferrand, France - 1/8/01

1/8/01

And now back to my nightly journal-writing.  He's gone.  His plane left at 12:40pm today and it should be landing in Tulsa in less than an hour.  I am just really depressed now.  I don't want to go to class tomorrow and I don't want to teach ever again.  We still haven't been paid for October!  I just want to have a day to lay in bed and cry.  With Jamie's pillowcase (that I love) and the elephant he gave me - Gordon.  I'm going to call him tomorrow night... I want to talk to him now, but that's not really possible with him being in an airplane... I just went over my checkbook (finally) and am pretty worried about how little I have left.  It'll help when I'm finally paid!  I'm going to need a lot of strength to get through these next 6 months without him here.  When we were walking on Rue St Honore in Paris a few nights ago, we went into a jewelry place to get my finger sized - 48 (european) for a thin ring and 49 for a thick one.  She said that's "almost a 5" in american.

We had a good time in Paris.  We played pool!  And I won a game!  I'm so much in love with him and it really hurts to have him so far away.  Now more than ever.  We spent our last day in Paris looking for a restaurant called Henri's Mussels and ended up eating at TGI Friday's.  And singing silly songs and having a wonderful time.  I have more fun with him than anyone else in the world.  I need him so much.

I'm going to go to bed now.  I hope I can fall asleep quickly.  I'm not even going to get ready.  I'll start crunches again tomorrow.  I love you so much, sweetheart.  I hope your flight was alright.  G'night, Jamie.